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Today was terrible. Trying to serve customers and hiding the anger and tears at the same time. /Today reminded me of the time I was 12 and a posh girl in my school asked me if my best friends house was as small as my house and I said: "its about the same time but there house was build 30 years before ours and it has a upstairs so its hard to say." /The posh girl (these days my good friend) told my best friend (still a good friend aswell) that I had called her house "a cave and dirty." My best friend didn't talk to me for 6 months and everyone from my class believed what she had heard and turned against me and I was alone. /No one believed me and everytime I even tried to explain I was just called a liar. I hated going to school, waking up every day was a nightmare. /Let me remind you: I was 12, children are children. I got a lot of good out of that time: new friends... and my old ones in the end but I promised myself if anything like that were to happen ever again I would know that someone who is a true friend and knows me, knows what I'm like and knows how I charise my friendships and put my friends before anything else. Or atleast listens to me. /There are not many people that know this. Only last summer, whilst playing a stupid game on a friend summer cottage I was chosen "the most likely to leave a friend in trouble." I think that was the last time I cried for over a hour. That could have been the most hurtful thing ever said to me./I have a lot of friends but only a handful of people truly know me. I don't want to be between people that bad mouth each other and blame it on me. Thats why I don't like to get too involved. Back at home I use to bounce from different groups of friends and also enjoying just being on my own. I don't want to please everybody but I do have a good heart and value my friendships. Right now I just want to be alone, not for 6 months, not because I'm forced to but because the last time I was this hurt was when I was 12./